Have you ever encountered someone who will fight tooth and nail to make you see their point of view? Or, maybe you were in a situation where a person is obviously wrong but is so damn sure they are right, they become angry?
Have you been that person?
If you have never been witness to those things, then you probably didn’t meet me when I was in my teens and 20’s.
I have been dealing with some pretty heavy negative self-image issues lately and every time I sat to write this post, I couldn’t get the words to flow from my heart to my fingertips.
Every time I write a blog post, I pour a lot of energy into what I want to convey to you readers. I sometimes walk around my kitchen-living room loop talking out loud to myself while I make sure the words come out perfectly. Sometimes when I am in bed at night I send myself little text messages with ideas or phrases I want to include in a blog post… because I know I can not rely on my sleep-deprived memory alone.
The other day I was wallowing in self-pity – another day of not doing. I hadn’t worked toward any of my goals. The manufacturers of my living room couch just had to make it so incredibly comfortable, didn’t they? Facebook needed so much of my attention. I wasn’t feeling like my futile attempts were getting me anywhere, so why bother? I was playing the victim role – even though the situation I was in was totally in my control.
When we want change we often think to begin anew we need to have a concrete end to something else – a thing that often has no relation to the change we actually want to see happen. How many of us have waited until the following Monday before starting a diet? Or thought that we had to end a relationship in order to start fresh within ourselves? It doesn’t have to be this way, and I am going to tell you why using mindfulness to create a new beginning within yourself can and should be done even amidst times of stress and turmoil.